You won't believe it.
I am back in the US! It has been a long while since my feet have stood on the soil of this beautiful state of Oklahoma.
God bless,
Eric-
A song by Jonny Cash
"I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way"
There are so many people around you that feel this way. Many are good at hiding this pain, this loneliness. Next time you pass by someone you are close to, take the time to see how they are. See how they really are. Get deep, get real. You never know who might need to be loved.
Growing up as a baptist kid I haven't ever been exposed to the wilder side of Christian Spirituality. Speaking in tongues, constantly praying against the devil and prophesying were only things that I read stories about in the Bible. Things have changed.
Before you freak out thinking that I have fundamentally changed who I am, hear me out. I have a different view the possibilities of the Christian walk. As a believer in Jesus I am not limited to a passionless, knowledge only relationship with Him. There can be passion and power in the life of a Christian man. God has given, and I believe still does give men the ability to preach the Gospel in a language he has never heard before. God has given, and still gives believers prophecies about other people.
1 Corinthians 14:24-25
24But if an unbeliever or someone who does not understand[h]comes in while everybody is prophesying, he will be convinced by all that he is a sinner and will be judged by all, 25and the secrets of his heart will be laid bare. So he will fall down and worship God, exclaiming, "God is really among you!"
Pretty revolutionary stuff. Going through a day knowing that at any moment the secrets of your heart could be "laid bare" really made me think twice about the true state of my heart and mind. Of course a man can know the state of his own heart, but when no one else knows it is very easy to ignore. Knowing that all can be laid bare has caused me to think twice about the true nature of things.
I will be studying the power of prayer and the various other spiritual gifts. Maybe some day I will let you in on what I have learned.
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